The lamp itself was fried, but I kept the plug and the penny as a reminder of God's protection over her. They are in a special place on my dresser.
In the adoption world, there are those who say, "Step out in faith, and God will provide! We started with nothing and had $40,000 raised in 6 months!" While I'm not doubting the veracity of those stories, I will say that it doesn't always work that way. Maybe if you're really popular. Maybe if you have a close knit, large extended family who is excited for you. Maybe if your job, or your spouse's job is like a second family to you, or has great adoption benefits.
We went into Hannah's adoption thinking we'd get a cool story of how God provided by some Big Miracle. And I confess, I was a little disappointed when that was not how He did it. We applied for a grant from Show Hope and were denied. Instead, God gave my husband the ability to work a ton of overtime. Still God's provision, just not as dramatic.
This time around, a month after we said yes to Katie, Paul got hurt and couldn't work for 5 weeks. That means no regular work, and no overtime. This has put us in a position of having to trust all the more. I celebrate every gift, large or small, that comes in from any source now, because I have learned that God's provision doesn't always come with blinding light and trumpets. Sometimes it's enclosed in a Christmas card. Sometimes it's seeing our Reece's Rainbow ticker jump up $20 bucks.
While it would be neat to be able to say, "This big thing happened and God provided," it's just as beautiful to be able to tell you, "God is providing." It's ongoing. It's not a finished act. That helps us rely on Him all the more. And I have a feeling, that's right where He wants us.
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